Monday, May 31, 2010

First time I realized that I was gay, I had to be about the age of 12 or 13 years old. When I think about it now, its no surprise that my mother knew before I did. As a child, I always played with boys toys but yes! I did play with some Barbie dolls. However, my favorite toy was my race cars. My parents bought me girly toys, but having three god brothers. It was hard not playing with toys that caught my eye. I don't know, but I just loved playing with a boy toys.

Its funny to me, how I felt gay all my life but didn't come out until October 14, 2010. Yes!! I waited until I felt comfortable enough to tell the world I was gay. Yet, telling my mother was the very difficult part. Then again, it was funny to me how my mother was waiting for me to tell her that I was gay. My mother told me that she knew, I was gay from my tomboyish clothes to NOT wearing a dress or asking her questions about guys.Sometimes, I did wear what my mother wanted me too, only because, I didn’t want hear her mouth. I think I got confused a lot because I was always trying to please people instead of pleasing myself.

I haven't been through drama with telling people that I am gay. I think the only issue that I have had, was telling someone who I thought was my real friend that I was gay. Only to haven't talked to her for three years now. I realize only true friends will walk in when the world walks out.

I don't know how to end this but this is the start of me coming out to the world

Old to New Material

I didn’t realize that I had blogger.com until one day, I was searching for a new blog website to create. These three entries are my old writing material dated back to 2008. Probably a lot of grammar errors and a lot of misunderstood sentence...lol but I am working on it and I am getting better on the grammar and sentence fragments...lol I will have new blogs posted in due time or some time by the end of the week. Enjoy, what I have so far!!!!