Sunday, July 13, 2008

Tired in Twenty-One Ways

I’m tired of waking up in the same f*cking scenery, everyday
I’m tired of not seeing myself the way God sees me
I’m tired of going to work and dealing with idiots
I’m tried of being nice to people
I’m tired of people walking all over me
I’m tired of being sh*tted on
I’m tired of being invisible
I’m tired of being overlooked
I’m tired of being dependent
I’m tired of not being heard
I’m tired of being unhappy
I’m tired of hating my life
I’m tired of being me, sometimes
I’m tired of trying and getting nowhere
I’m tired of feeling a thousand of tears on my face
I’m tired of b*tch-ass people
I’m tired of having hate in my heart
I’m tired of living in an injustices world
I’m tired of being judged base on the color of my skin
I’m tired of my own kind looking down at me
I’m tired of just being disappointed

Thursday, July 10, 2008

My new Image

What happened to your hair? What do you mean what happen to my hair? Making this decision I thought about it for along time. I could lose a lot, for example, I could lose my friends, my family members who doesn't accept it, I could lose a good paying job, I could be treated different from people that see me every day, or I could even be mistreated from people that I don't even know.

No, I'm not gay…I am talking about what black women think and believe that defines them…their hair. India Arie couldn't have explained it better then I can say it…."I am not my hair, I am not this skin, I am not your expectations, no I am a soul that lives within". On March 7, 2008, I went, and I got my hair locked up because it was time to change my life to become the women that I feel within. So, please don't come up to me asking me why I would want "those dirty" things in my hair. To my understanding, they are not dirty its who and how you maintain them to make them look pretty.

I've had only one person who has congratulated me because she to is a black women, and she understands how it feels to be misunderstood of wearing dreadlocks. People don't agree of it because its not the image they see you as. And I thank her for giving me self-reliant to never given in to what people say.

Does the way I wear my hair make me a better person? Does the way I wear my hair make me a better friend? Does the way I wear my hair determine my integrity? I am expressing my creativity... If I want shave it off, wear a monk ( soup bowl due), mohawk, dye it red, blue, blond let me because that's my business and not yours. It's just hair and it will grow back. It doesn't take away from the soul that lives within.

I don't see what's wrong with expressing who you are within